Kylo
Joined: 02/16/05
Location: San Francisco
Posts: 787
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I survived:
1. A beat down and ice pack to the face by ex- girlfriend. (found a 5'4" domestic abuse case. Still have scars...)
2. a japanese car clutch repair.
3. losing 2 nice bicycles in a two month period to two different thieves.
4. Homelessness in my car for almost a month here. (I make coffee with a portable camp stove.)
5. breaking a large window on a downtown highrise 11 stories up while stuck on a fire escape. (no one hurt thank god)
6. A fucking lawyer a few floors down claiming I cracked her window. (Well, this is still in effect) She hasn't been laid for years I'm sure.
7. A damn dog bit me on my leg today.
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9. No damn insurance!!!
10. No internet access except for mobile aps... 
I realize that I only allowed these things to happen-- Now that march has passed- I'm back into a place and much much better off.
But now I've figured out my computer's defunkt because moisture has gotten inside of it while it was hastily shoved into storage!!!
Looks like no music production for a little while. 
I'm currently at my aunt's place... thank god for family!
How's everyone else??
"Energizer bunny arrested- charged with battery."
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louwhoz
Joined: 03/13/05
Posts: 429
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Yes, thank God for family! 
So sorry to hear about the last month, Ky. You know how we feel about you and the offer always stands should you come down to S.D. But I'm also so proud of you for:
1. Getting through all of this
2. Being confident enough to share it
3. Finding yourself in a better place for having been through it
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5. And mostly for just 'surviving' because I happen to like you a lot!
That being said, have you considered sleeping with the attorney?
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Subtronik
Joined: 01/14/03
Posts: 1193
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Things could be worse. You could be blind, deaf, legless, armless, paralyzed, have cancer, cirrhosis, aids, kidney disease or brain damage.
I've been homeless before too. I lived behind an apartment complex in San Francisco for months until the landlord ran me off. I slept in parks, alleys, streets, bars and the caves at Sutro Baths. Hitting bottom taught me to appreciate life and all of the challenges it throws at me.
You'll see better days Kylo, just stay driven to survive no matter how bad things get. Most of us are just surviving too.
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louwhoz
Joined: 03/13/05
Posts: 429
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Wow, Sub, sounds like you have some crazy stories in your past. So glad you got through those times, too.
It really is the hard times that make us who we are as people. My Mom has a saying that she used to throw at us any time things got tough "People who haven't been through shit aren't worth shit." Now, I'm not saying it's true...but I have noticed that the folks I tend to be drawn to are the ones who have seen some hairy days and came out on the other side better for having been there. I wouldn't be who or where I am if I had not survied the dark days of my past, and I'm glad I faced the challenges I did at the time, because they have allowed me to help others as I have gotten older. Experience is a bitch! But bitches aren't always bad. 
What makes it hard is hearing about it happening to someone you care about. You are such a sweet person, Kylo, that I want only sunshine and puppies for you!  You know we're here for you, all you have to do is ask.
And I agree with Sub, "You'll see better days Kylo, just stay driven to survive no matter how bad things get." All you can do is keep on keepin' on!
So here's to SURVIVING!
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Kylo
Joined: 02/16/05
Location: San Francisco
Posts: 787
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YES!! I know things could be waaay worse and the more you sit around in this sort of life style, the more a person realizes their potential to just wake up and take advantage of being able!!
I'm chilling at office depot for a break in between my doggies here.
Subs-- Sorry to hear you've chilled for a while this way. Sutro baths is practically where I park at night.  Sea cliff is the spot- they've got a patrol car and everything! They haven't bothered me yet... And that reminds me, I've probably had a spotlight shined on me more than I wanted in the last month. It's such a terrible feeling when that damn light blinds your face; you feel like a criminal.
Like a strobe light to me at this point.
Lou, I love that saying. You ain't worth a shit until you've been through it... but yes, we all need to remind ourselves that we shouldn't judge folks otherwise we'd have another Hitler in the house.
And no, I'm not sleeping with that lady-- I'd rather whip a silverback gorilla while handcuffed to the bedpost.
Thank you for talking with me guys. Sometimes I notice that's just essential; it's the communication thing. Turns out I'm going to be alright- just working to FIND work and it's a wake up.
"Energizer bunny arrested- charged with battery."
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Subtronik
Joined: 01/14/03
Posts: 1193
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Kylo wrote:Subs-- Sorry to hear you've chilled for a while this way.
I'm glad I went through it. It taught me to pick myself up, dust myself off, and work for a better life.
The strangest experienced I had while being homeless was when I stayed in an abandoned hospital in London. We were tripping with two dogs running around in total darkness. There were huge holes in every floor so you had to be careful when walking around at night.
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Second Thought
Joined: 05/05/02
Location: Oh God knows.
Posts: 188
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Glad to hear things are on the up - even if only on a small level. Sounds like you'll come away from this year with stories to tell though!
Drug use for children has for many an education and with obvious alarm to both parents on the increase almost yearly.
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Kylo
Joined: 02/16/05
Location: San Francisco
Posts: 787
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I love telling stories. If I happen to have some bad luck I actually like to turn it into a laugh unless it's depressing. The thing about my first homeless experience/lesson is that people really do start to change and disconnecting from society makes time go faster. You quickly discover who your friends really are!! (Gideon and Lou have always been)
hehe.
No doubt it's a down spiral that's hard to escape if you start to lose your purpose.
Whatever my anchor to reality is, I've spent these last two months looking at the string with a knife in hand.
It crossed my mind quite a bit to just get a van and become a camp champ-- I have the knowledge and ability to pull that off! Considering it's like an isolation chamber; so many other people already do this, it sounds like a good time to me. Crazy all the lifestyles available out there but I'm doing absolutely fine since I'm moving into a place this next month. As of now, just getting new seeds planted and remaining open to change.
Cheers guys. Life really isn't that bad.
"Energizer bunny arrested- charged with battery."
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Subtronik
Joined: 01/14/03
Posts: 1193
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The streets are the library of life, so even when you have nothing but the sidewalk to sleep on you do tend to learn more important life lessons quicker, like what matters to you most and who's real or fake.
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Kylo
Joined: 02/16/05
Location: San Francisco
Posts: 787
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Subs, it's good to be able to share with you too especially.
Bottom line is that I have no idea where I'm trying to go at this moment but I know I'll always have some kick ass friends here.
"Energizer bunny arrested- charged with battery."
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Kylo
Joined: 02/16/05
Location: San Francisco
Posts: 787
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Well actually, I kinda have been asking myself "Do I need a direction??" I seem alright with either really.
"Energizer bunny arrested- charged with battery."
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Subtronik
Joined: 01/14/03
Posts: 1193
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I drifted from city to city for twelve years with little or no money. I met the most intelligent and insane people. I ate out of dumpsters. I sold and did drugs. I had a gun pointed to my head twice. I was on S.F. GA and then SSI. I never stole though, which I'm proud of.
What I discovered over those bleak years was that most anyone can do whatever they want in life, It's mainly a matter of starting the momentum by throwing one foot in front of the other and never stopping. Sounds cliche I know, but I know for myself and many others it's true.
After those many years of drifting I finally got clean, got off of SSI and moved back to my native home of Florida. I immediately started a career I've been with for fourteen years and have never looked back.
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A Bit Crusher
Joined: 01/26/02
Location: Tilburg
Posts: 1794
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...these are pretty heavy stories...and I thought I was going trough some bad times....I wish you all the best, Kylo!
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Kylo
Joined: 02/16/05
Location: San Francisco
Posts: 787
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Things really are on the up finally. Thanks Roland, I've got to learn something here finally.
wisdom has been placed within my brain by subs especially. At this point I'm just changing some things I do now.
"Energizer bunny arrested- charged with battery."
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